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We ate breakfast as we could, between the avalanche of questions that Stephanie had for me.

A few were about CMNF, but the was majority were about life in general: about her job, about our daughter, about my job. There were even a few about our sex life: she was surprised that we had sex almost daily, and sometimes, more than once per day on some weekends.

But the biggest surprise was yet to come.

“Often, you have sex multiple times on Friday evenings…”, I told her.

“What do you mean?”

“You often have sex with a few of the regulars of our CMNF evenings, usually after the main event but sometimes during.”

She seemed shocked.

“Wait, so I sleep around? And you are fine with it? ”

This time, I am the one who blushed red.

“It’s not exactly what happens, honey…”

She looked puzzled.

“What do you mean? Wait, are we swingers now?”

I just looked at her, but she took my look as a confirmation of fact and hid her face in her hands. I put my hand on her shoulder.

After a  few minutes, she resumed the conversation: “That wasn’t in my diary. I don’t think I ever had fantasies about swingings or open relationships”

“No, that came from our evenings. It’s something we picked up from seeing the other couples and how they lived their CMNF.”

“And I like it?”

“Yes, I guess. I don’t think it’s one of your primary fantasies, but it kind of fits with it? I mean, apart from one person, you’ve always said that it didn’t do much for you. You’ve compared having sex with them as appetizers. I think in some cases, you’ve done so to get a couple to come back so that you wouldn’t lose the event but you seemed fine with it.”

“So what, I was almost a prostitute?”

I had to suppress a laugh.  “You’ve made that joke multiple times…”

“Joke? This is funny?”, she said, half outraged, hiding her breasts behind her crossed arms.

“Over the last 4 years, you’ve developed a much bigger sense of humor. In fact, you’ve written quite a few very funny articles for the blog you edit. But I don’t think it’s that clear. For example, you’d want to have sex on an evening to have a kind happy ending to an event and wouldn’t care whom so you would pick the couple whom you most wanted to see again or those who were swingers and didn’t find anyone. I don’t think you ever had sex with someone just so they would come back, but perhaps it helped motivate you.”

“And only one guy ever managed to make it worth my while?”

“Well, that’s not really true. Only one person did manage to really blow your mind, but you’ve learned to like it when you bring someone to orgasm. ”

“So how many partners did I have over those four years?”

“Most were repeats, but I’d say around twenty? Maybe that, twenty…”

“TWENTY? I’ve slept with twenty guys… Wow. I was a virgin when I met you! I never thought I’d have sex with another guy…”

We continued eating breakfast.

“What his name?”, she asked.

“Whose?”, I replied, innocently.

“The guy who was able to blow my mind”.

I replied with my mouth full on purpose.

“What? I didn’t catch his name…”

I stared at the floor, and simply whispered “Kim”

“But that’s… oh… I see… So, it wasn’t twenty guys, was it?”

“No, about 5 girls and 15 guys.”

“So apparently, I am bisexual now! This has been a wonderful day!”

“Don’t worry too much, Kim knows about the medication. In fact, the whole group knows, you’ve told everyone last week at our last event. You, your present you, can choose whatever you want. You can forget about everything, or pick piece by piece. Everyone will understand, even Kim”

“Why single out Kim then?”

Shit, I had said too much.

“Her name just came up in the conversation”, I said, nervously.

“Seeing your tone, I doubt that. Who is she?”

“A lady who attends our CMNF group.”

“I got that from context. I mean who is she to us?”

I took a deep breath.

“I guess you could say she is your girlfriend? Well, our girlfriend?”

“Oh boy”. She said, dropping once again her face in her hands.

“Yeah. But she understands. She knows it might change. She knows that at best, it might take some time”.

“Are there videos about her? in that tablet?”

“Plenty.”

“I think I want to binge watch a ton of those videos. I can’t stand not knowing everything. I know I said to take it slow n that video, but I don’t think I am over-reacting, I don’t think I am back into depression. I am still naked after all, and I am still interested, wildly curious even, about the next event. And if the videos say what I think they will say, I want Kim here as soon as I am done. I can’t stand knowing only parts and bits of my own life. And I think I want that life from 4 years ago, not the one from before that even if right now, I am definitely not comfortable with the idea of having sex with a woman. But I guess, I must be, I mean, if all of this is true!”

I smiled.

“It is all true. I’ll call her when you start your videos to ask her to get here ASAP.”

“No, not ASAP. We eat breakfast, I’ll watch two or three videos, and then, you’ll fuck my brains out.”

I smiled and we rushed through breakfast.

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